Honesty

It's quite strange dating a smart guy. It's an entirely new experience for me as most of the guys I've dated/had flings with, have all been nice guys but collectively, they had the net intelligence/sophistry of Donald Trump. I would say whatever I wanted and they would accept it absolutely. They never got mad at me no matter how many times I ditched them or lied to them because I knew exactly what to say. I never was mean to them, that's not who I am, but I always got what I wanted with no feelings hurt on either side. Perhaps once in a while I felt guilty about how dishonest I was in a supposed relationship but I figured that white lies are what oils the gears and I didn't particularly feel like committing to them anyway.

So now sandy-haired boy has caught me out and I'm wondering what to do about it. Should I continue with my falsity or give him honest truth? There's a certain security in never being honest, you can always leave in an instant because you've never really given things away.